Yes, it’s another Harry Potter post.

Spoilers through Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix ahead.

So, it’s been a little over a month. Mike’s been rereading the first five Harry Potter books, looking for clues, and I’ve been cruising the web, reading essays and discussions, coming up with theories. On one of the boards I’ve been reading, someone linked to this LiveJournal post from arabellasq. While I have never been a huge ‘shipper (yes, I rooted for Harry/Ginny and Ron/Hermione, but they’re kids. It’s not as much fun for me as rooting for Luke and Lorelai. Hardcore rooting for kids seems slightly creepy) and I don’t read Harry Potter fanfiction, I can still agree with the sentiments expressed. I have enjoyed reading theories and speculation on the web about the books. I’ve enjoyed going to parties for the last three books. I’ve enjoyed staying away from spoilers and reading with Mike and falling in love with the characters over and over again. It’s been fun not to know the answers, and not to have them readily available. To wait with the other fans and to let the excitement build. For me, at least, it’s been a pure pleasure to be a fan of this series. We didn’t get into the books because of any hype, but because we love the story. And we have stayed because we love the story. Are the books overhyped? Maybe, I don’t know. I don’t have the best perspective on it, but it doesn’t matter to me at all. I seem to genuinely enjoy some things that people consider overhyped (LotR and Desperate Housewives, for two), and that’s fine with me because there are things I haven’t gotten into that are overhyped, too (Lost, for one).

An aside: Yesterday Mike and I were discussing that one of the things I like about myself is that, despite my many insecurities and people-pleasing tendencies, I am able to form my own opinions about the media around me. I don’t read a book just because everyone else is reading it, but I won’t not read it just because everyone else is reading it, either. I get informed and I make pretty good decisions. I like that.

When we finished HBP, I was really sad, both because of what happened and because there’s only one left. I might be the most hardcore fan here at the library, but by most standards I’m not a hardcore fan, and yet . . . I don’t want it to be over. I want to relish this time before we know everything, before we’ve got all the answers. I love the questions that are still unresolved and our speculation and the crazy theories. I look back on that three-year-summer and I remember how we were dying for the book, because Voldemort was back and Fudge wouldn’t believe it, and I went around and around with Mike and Theresa, talking about what was going to happen next. In many ways, we had a pretty clear idea of what had to happen next at that point: the “old crowd” had to reorganize, and Hagrid was going to talk to the giants, and a few people knew about Sirius. After OotP, things were less clear, because there was still a lot we didn’t know about the prophecy. Now we have a lot of information, but there are so many huge things we don’t know. I agree that that was the golden age of fandom, no question. But this is pretty good.

It has been a lot of fun to be a fan, to watch the story unfold over several years. We’ve been fans for about six years at this point. And as much as I wish I could read book 7 today, I don’t want to wish this time away. I want to savor every minute of it. I want to keep being stopped by my pastor after the service to talk about our new ideas, and I want to keep going around and around with Mike and I want to keep making Brian and Sarah talk about it when they come over. I know some people would give their right arm for the book today, but I don’t feel that way. These days, I am looking forward to this last bit of waiting, this last bit of time before we’ll know everything. The two years before HBP went by so quickly. I’m not ready for it to be completely over.

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